I am sorry you feel that way too. I am ginnie postc-6-7 and don't know if i want any more of anything eithor. I am very tired too and think about giving up alot. I reached out to this list in hopes I can gather strength for what is happening to me. I am way past just depression. I hide most of what I am feeling. I don't have a desire to face years more of pain and surgeries for a condition that is not reversable or curable. The DDD and DJD just keeps going. You can list like I am doing in hopes of getting some relief from all that presses down on us. I do not know what I am going to do and I am afraid. Do keep posting to this list, I think there are others here that can help us. Ginnie