Hi, I hear your pain and confusion. No matter how old we are, all of us at some point experiece this kind of pain. I am new to the list and trobled over other issues, I just want you to know you are not alone, and no matter what happens there are those who would listen. It is ok to do that on this site and others will respond to I am sure. I am 58 f my name is ginnie i have a confused sign on my thread i will keep all of you in my prayers.