Lonely1 - thank you for putting into words how I feel. You are not alone and I can't even describe how it helps that I'm not alone either. I'm going to pick up that book the next chance I get because I am seriously considering giving up and checking out but do not want to do that to my family.

Thank you again for your post and thank you to everyone that responded. I'm new here and still finding my way around.

Debbie