Hi Jen
welcome back!
i'm sorry for the loss of your friend.
i hope your other friend in the psych unit and your brother both get better soon.
as to the brother who read you the riot act, what can i say. those are hard things to hear and spoken by someone who obviously does not understand. true, your T can't tell you you should or should not do, but
neither can he. and there is no reason he would know any better than your T. your T is on your side... it doesn't sound like he is. subtract yourself from his judgment. you didn't ask to be ill.
keep posting, we are here.
~ waves ~