Why I don't get help...

I think I can defeat it by myself...

I can't find the energy to go out.... and to get the help for it

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I can always talk the talk.... I can't always walk it

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Right now my mom's death and a personal relationship breakup are overwhelming me with sadness and despair... I often think maybe I should be living anymore... its so much work...

and this, too, shall pass....