Oh meg, I know the roulette wheel too. You want to get of it so very much. I hear that cause it took me alot of doctors to get help. I am not a good patient and I make demands of my doctors. The truth is one of what my requests are. Some doctor is going to listen to you. I believe this. You can't stop looking for that help. It is out there, just not so easy to find. I went to a new neuro surgeon, after crying 4 days about it, fear.... He was wonderful and not only listened to me, but to two others I dragged with me for support. He gave me new hope, and so did this list I found, God's own direction. I am getting support here. No question about it, I feel it in the replies I get. Keep posting and asking, and reaching out. Ginnie