Hi Dave, there are others indeed, who think you bring this stuff on yourself. Some religion, believe we deserve what is happening to us, that somehow our sins are involved, and that we are paying the price for that. People think all kinds of silly stuff. I hope that you can have those few friends you can count on, to help you through, so you can find some answers to your pain and condition. I have a thread going somewhere too. I am new like you are, and said hi before.