i am sorely tempted to go up to 75 mg Zoloft tomorrow. the activation is just about gone, and actually i have been sleeping about 7 hours and then taking naps and loading up on caffeine just to remain conscious. feeling really wiped out most of the time.

i've been on the stuff long enough now, that i ought to be seeing some improvement - i'm not - and i no longer even have the extra energy. a dear dear friend called today and it was nice... but normally i'd get a lot more excited to talk to her. i haven't been keeping up with my mails either. i don't know how i keep writing here, why i can. i just can. maybe it's that i don't have to.

i get my labs back on wednesday... technically i should wait. it's only 2 days. but it might a little activation 2 days sooner might make the difference for me between taking action in time to count, or not.

while there isn't a specific deadline, i have been thinking of looking into a new kind of job - one where they typically hire for september start dates. i'm cutting it fine as it is.

~ waves ~