Hi debie, I do understand your fear. I do not have what you do, but that fear of surgery, all the pain, even an IV start. It is alot to handle no matter what kind of surgery you have to do. I feel that there are others here that feel the same way we do. I have to have surgery too, I await my NS to call me. I sit worried, so I reach out to this list. Good luck to you in whatever has to be your direction. None of it is easy for sure. Ginnie