I am on that journey too. I now await my NS to call and set up my second cervial fussion. This time C-3-7- enough said. I hate needles in the worst way. I was so anxious I threw up. For the whole week before I was hell to live with. I cried the whole time. I had my first spinal epidural. I submitted to this with fear, It was actually this same PS told me first about the CT. I had no bad effects from what was used on me Kanadol 80mgs. I had read all the horror stories about how bad theirs turned out. My two epidurals, did help. I was just as shakey the second time. I think my surgery will be before the next one is scheduled, so I will be hopefully not required to to it. My hope is of course my surgery will help. I did not experience very much pain at all. I can tell you the details, because he talked to me during the proceedure. He was calming to me, and understood me being nervous. I guess if I do indeed have to do it again, I will get through it better. I think so much of it is fear because we are in so much pain already. We do as humans not like pain so much. I would talk to you any time, I do wish you the best. I'm in for A