You know all joking aside, I don't think I have ever felt so absolutely defeated by life as I do right now. The doctors are scartching their heads over the Thyroid going crazy again, yet a google serach for the cocurrenece of Graves Disease and MS tell me that one of the main triggers of Graves Disease is immune supression therapy most commonly Beta Interferon.

Each doctor is telling me I am on too many meds, yet they keep writing prescriptions. Been fighting with SSDI idiots since june of 09 and still not getting anywhere with them.

The bones in my back keep breaking form the sheer pressure of my joints swelling in my spine but they don't know what exactly is causing the inflammation.

We know Ty causes inflammation... yet my infusion is friday, but this may very well be the thing that has set my thyroid off. This may also be the reason for the brittle bones. BUT, it's the only drug in the last two years that has done anything to slow the progression of MS.

My hip would be an easy fix with cortisone shots and PT, but I cannot have either of them. Again we go back to the Ty... no steroids allowed. And the broken bones in my back pretty much make physical therapy impossible.

I am at a crossroads and I am stuck. Do I stop the Ty and just let the MS take over and accept defeat or do I stay on the Ty and stave off the MS, and watch the rest of my body fail?

I know that with everything going on depression and anxiety are natural. I know that stress triggers manic episodes. But I also know that there is not a mood stabilizer on the market that is going to make this better, so I am not willing to start anymore meds. I will find ways to deal with the emotional side of things but it would be so much easier if I could see some kind of improvement in the physical side.

I just don't know. My doctors all seem to be idiots lately.