I wonder- how much sadder a person can get and still survive

I wonder why my son can cause such heart-ache in my family
I wonder if pain ever goes away, flows away or is just gone
I wonder what purpose is left for me
I wonder why i can't just go to sleep and never wake up again
I wonder why this country has better laws protecting animals than the people in the WC system
I wonder if there will ever again be beauty in my life
I wonder...