I'm not doing okay. Just called a mental health hotline just so I could vent and ;hysicall talk to someone- not because I'm freaking out- just needed to talk. My therapist is out of town for a week and I can't get in to see my pdoc until Tuesday. No family help. Very, very depressed. Very very depressed. Not pity upon self. Just extremely depressed.

This week I lost four pounds. Not sure if it is due to neuro issues or depression. Yes, I'm currently seeing two different neuros. Regular and a specialist and then going to another specialist sometime late this fall. I'm suppose to have a neurological exam- four hours worth in a few weeks. When I discovered that the test results came back with something wrong last week I freaked out. Then when I read the paperwork last night that the 'memory test' was actually a 'neurological exam'- and looked up what that meant I went off the deep end. Look up what it is. You will understand why I am really upset with why they ordered it and why they did not tell me the truth about my test results/then discovered that there is something 'wrong with me'. Very scared and wondering what is going on.

This past weekend DH accidentally messed up and said my e-mail password outloud in front of some family members. Ironically one- who is at home all day- has been trying CONSTANTLY to get into my e-mail!! I know this because when I sign in it kicks me out telling me that I am not able to get in due to 'error messages of incorrect password and trying numerous times'- LOL!! They think I'm that stupid!!! I've had to change the password numerous times over the week to prevent them from getting in. This really ****** me off.