Originally Posted by tchr012

Rrae, thank you so much for that reply. It was really funny because I was secretly hoping we would get lost and not find the party but for the first time ever we made it there and I still did not want to go. But, after talking with my husband and he was with me I ended up going and you are right, people were actually nice! In fact, the old friends I had not talked to were nicer and more understanding then the new real time friends that I currently have. It was really fun and I made a new friend too so I am really proud of myself because the old me would have just not gone. Actually what was neat was that "Betsy" is a real conversation piece and everyone was asking me about it lol. And the people I did talk to said that I was brave and very strong to go through all this and still have a positive attitude (which I am getting better at that It was really great to be around people my own age and since we are all turning 30 we shared the whole "its weird turning 30" idea and that made me feel better too. My friend who was having the party was really happy that I made it there and now I really know who my real friends are So, I am going to try to keep this positive and optimism going as I call my new pain doctor tomorrow to check on my referral status. This whole situation has really given me back some hope and made me more determined to go up against these doctors that are not helping and to approach this new doctor with an open mind. I am also working on trying to handle my stress better which its probably worse due to not being in therapy for 3 weeks with the added extra pain and of course the stress with my doctor. I will be back to post again after I get my ct scan results and of course let you all know when I see the pain doctor. Again, thank you all for the support and encouragement! And Rrae all of your smilies in your post always brighten my day