I've felt that way at times. I don't know any quick or pat answer. I still struggle with it, although I'm much better at the one year mark and hope for a full recovery at some point in the future. It helps me to focus on what I can do, not what I've lost. It is hard to accept that I'm not the same, but I've had more peace since I came to terms with it. You're not crazy and this site is wonderful place for support, we understand. Hang in there.

Best wishes to you...