i hate to say it but it sounds as if you need a new therapist pronto....I have been spending a lot of time at Ron's, the one with the bedsore. I find bipolar comes out a lot from my mouth. It is the truth...It is definitely one huge part of me and I can recognize the symptoms but I cannot be separate from them.
My legs make me walk and I recognize that...I think she is asking you to at times cut off your legs.
My psychiatrist lets me mess with my meds when need be. There is no censor(sp)....He doubled up my antipsychotics and once said why wasn't I on them.
I told him he was the doctor and he had taken me off of one but didn't tell me to go on another and since I am bipolar I didn't recognize that I was in trouble.
I don't think you need to go to a hospital when you get manic unless there is a self injury factor. Your post got me really mad. They don't sound like a supportive team and seem to be putting stress on you. We all know that stress can lead to the flareup of symptoms.
My bipolar is a big part of me and I now just try to look at it as a gift from the divine to draw me closer. Attie is following her nonstress program and for a couple of days didnn't even need to take her small dose of antidepressants.
I am so sorry you are having to go through this...It just isn't fair but in the short term who said life is fair.
Bobby