Hi Tom and welcome to NeuroTalk. I am so sorry that your health has deteriorated so and that you have yet to get a dx. As you can see there are many forums of interest here..and you will find this a great place to make friends and share information.
I mostly frequent the Survivors of Suicide forum..our only son killed himself about twenty years ago and it just about destroyed our entire family so please don't even consider that as an option..people who love you will be forever changed. I know that you want the pain the end...not your life.
ALS, PPS, MS....check out the forums.
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread112688.html
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum17.html
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum2.html
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