i used to abuse alcohol.

in the past year, i've actually had an unexplained aversion to it. no idea why... not on any drugs that would cause such an aversion. also very averse to feeling its effects at all - barely tipsy, or drowsy. i'd at most have a glass of wine with dinner, and feel annoyed if i felt it.

lately i've been having beer in the afternoon. one 16 ounce beer, tops. on my birthday, i went to the bar, and i had 2 of them, but it was an exception. anyway... i still don't enjoy being tipsy but it doesn't seem to bother me as much. also, i am appreciating the slight numbing effect it has on me. i am a little concerned, but not terribly.

on the one hand, i know i need to keep an eye on things and not abuse alcohol. when you start appreciating the pharmacological effects, it is very easy to move into abuse. some might even say, it is abuse (self-medication, as opposed to recreational).

on the other hand, i know that i am not an alcoholic. and so appreciating a good weissbeer for the way it tastes, or a glass of rose with dinner, is ok.

i guess i wanted a place where i could share the good and the bad about it, and sort of keep track. and if anyone else wants to share and/or keep track of any aspects of alcohol... use... concerns... enjoyment... whatever... so much the better. concerns about others are welcome too.

thanks for listening

~ waves ~