Yes, you can call me Darcy.
I am not suicidal anymore. Mostly because I could never leave my son behind.
I have a wonderful psych doc and a new therapist that seems to 'get' me.
Right now i am feeling so fortunate to have a supportive husband and son and at the same time, feel sorry that I have put them through so much. I feel sorry to my husband that I am not more productive, motivated or able to move forward. I think my therapist and I figured out that it is not my husband who I am saying sorry to but to me. I have not mourned the loss of my previous self nor have I forgiven myself. (even though its for something that isn't under my control)