To be honest now? I am scared spitless about any flu shots!
I had ONE the first year I'd gotten what I'd gotten? And I still, seven years later, have a knot in my arm at that shot site! Luckily, I don't have to work with people or interact with many too often.
I think you need to/MUST speak with your doc/docs about this and articulate as carefully as you can WHY you have reservations and what you can do about the situations.
I would think your occupation mite determine IF you should or shouldn't get the shot[s]. Then Learn what type of vaccines are to be given, learn about side effects? And then see if THAT vaccine or more than one are right for you...in consult w/your docs!
You've gone thru too much to take chances now? A knot in the arm is ok? But worse than that isn't and there are funky lines about when and when not to. I hope you make the right choice for YOU! Only you can decide this. And, for you or me or others? It's a roll of the dice as to whether we are right or not. That or luck one way or the other.
You are right to be scared and cautious. Be better INFORMED and then make a better decision with your docs! Let us know what you decide! !'s -j