Hi Debbie!

I am so thankful to have found this site! I will be checking out the other suggestions that were sent to me as well.
How are the ECT's going? How many have you had and how many more are planned?
I understand what you are going through. It is so hard to even think straight most of the time so sharing seems to help me focus my thoughts and to try to think clearly.
I felt in such a desperate state at the time when I have the treatments done. Actually, I didn't want to live so honestly at the time if the treatments would have killed me that would have been o.k. But, I did feel really good a few months after the treatments. I felt energetic, beautiful, full of life...better than I have ever felt that I can recall. But that only lasted a few months. I bottomed out and was re-admitted into the hospital.
I found a great Dr. for med management that really cares for me. (that is hard to find) and have a pretty good therapist. I just dont have anyone who can relate to my situation. Family and friends try but they just cannot understand. It is interesting how it seems that no one asks me how I am doing anymore because they are not sure how to respond to any of it.

I would love to hear more about your life and what is going on with you.
Hang in there! You have a found new friend and we will work on this together.