Dear Mari

i felt please that i ran at first. sort of like i broke the spell. my feet feel ok so far - actually they feel good. i did not stretch which is bad. i feel kinda weird about that. i feel kind of hesitant and awkward about the running now.

also something kind of strange happened. my pulse rate remained pegged at ~ 120 bpm for several hours after i came home. i noticed it when i went to take down the garbage. it finally settled after dinner but was still a little higher than usual (some perhaps because i ate, but it was ~ 100 even then which i find odd.) i am hoping bizi will comment on this and tell me if she thinks it might be normal because i am not conditioned (very UNconditioned). my bp was very good both yesterday (114/72) and now (121/72). (or Kay, aren't you a nurse as well?)

my pulse is completely back to normal, typical-for-me (~72), now.

i don't know how long the zoloft will take. 2-6 weeks is the range... if i haven't noticed anything significant by the time i see pdoc, next week, i will ask about going to 150.

i noticed a flower and tried to make friends with a dog yesterday, so maybe that is a good sign, neither being the cynical-laughter type energy that seems to happen lately. i have been thinking that seems to be a warped expression of aggression more than anything else...

~ waves ~