Tom, the anger I was referring to was my anger at him, for taking his life.
No, no note, but nothing he could say would justify his actions. Granted, he found "peace...maybe" but left the rest of our family in agony.

That's why so many people call it a selfish act. I try very hard not to judge people because I hate being judged.

I think journaling is a good idea...please make it at least as long as War & Peace.