first i want to send you a hug.... (((((( Alffe )))))))

anger is a normal part of grief - through "natural" loss. and even then, there can be some guilt at feeling "why did he have to leave me" about the one who left, although there was no choice involved.

when in fact a choice was involved, that anger is HUGGGGE and more directed. i mean then, it even has a leg to stand on, two legs in fact. i've seen survivors whose initial reaction was outrage, simply shut it down, and focus on grief for other survivors... rather than admit their anger. i'm guessing because big anger breeds big guilt.

i am glad you have been able to accept your anger about Michael's action, along with all the other emotions. it is legitimate even if it is hard. it is good to see you write about Michael. i am glad you were able to carve back the space in which to celebrate his life, miss him, mourn him, AND be angry with him.

~ waves ~