hello dear Majo

well here i still am and still uptight.

i think i might take some ambien. i have 5 hours to sleep it off... not great... but might be ok... dunno... maybe would be better off with a few more drops of the benzo, or some lorazepam.

the heart tests are tbd... i have to go to my gp and get requests, then book appts.... it's going to cost money and pdoc seemed to think it was important before running but otherwise he didn't seem to be toooo concerned... so i am going to wait... we have some other medical expenses in the family and i don't want those to be put off.

meantime, i will try to get out and walk sort of "aggressively" with the mind set that it is a "necessary preparation phase" to running again.

~ waves ~