Hi Royrand ~ I totally relate because I was first prescribed Xanax for panic attacks, and my doc kept refilling the prescription as she saw how anxious i was and how nervous. i've always been that way. so i continued takiing it, and like you if i was having a bad day, or something happened that upset me, i'd pop a pill. well, i became addicted to it, like i suspect you have. i didn't want to admit it tho. who wants to admit that they're addicted to something? i sure didn't want to. but i had to because xanax is a very DANGEROUS DRUG.

so i broke down and told my doctor that i had become addicted to it. afterall, she had prescribed it! but it wasn't her fault - i abused it. so i asked her how to get off it because you CANNOT JUST STOP IT. it's very dangerous to just quit cold-turkey. you could die. you have to wean off very slowly and your doctor should help you.

ask your doctor for a weaning schedule. this should be done under the doctor's supervision or you could go into seizures or die if you go too fast. so get a schedule and get off it. this is no way to live, believe me. god bless and take care. hugs, lee

ps - if you want to talk, let me know.