I had to call the suicide prevention hotline today. (NT was down :[ )
I spoke with a guy name Brian and he saved my life.

It is physically painful for me to hold anything inside but it hurts even more if I say what I want and no one Listens. I can talk for hours but if no one listens, the pain just builds and builds. its like my skin is on fire.

My mother just brushes me off and tells me to relax, but how can I relax about wanting to die?

I just want help. I don't know how to tackle any of this.

I don't want to be depressed or suicidal anymore and I don't want these feelings anymore.

:[ i just dont know anymore