Alffe ...... and Mark

Just when i finally got myself 'together' and 'collected'.......
Bring on the waterfall!!

Tom ~
For what it's worth and just so you know....
Today I was at a service sitting next to my husband listening to an inspirational message, which just so happened to be entitled "Staying 'WITH IT' When You 'Feel Unnecessary'"
Well, I won't keep it a secret.....YOU were all over my heart as I was scratching down notes.......
- Life has passed you by?
- Feeling Unnecessary....Useless.....Insignificant...... 'small'
- Insecurities, Failures
- Bound up by these ideals......Isolation

- What is 'stopping' you? Thoughtlife.....
- Bitterness, Hopelessness, Negativity.......Pain

The above were some of the bullet-points that were addressed.
And many of those points coincide with some of the very words you used to describe yourself in one of your posts....
'My life, Meaningless, Incredibly Small, Speck of Dirt, No Importance, Useless,
Single grain of dirt/pebble'......

And when David responded to you by describing a single pebble being dropped in an ocean, and the ripple-effect, waves...... (That was beautiful David)...... I was deeply touched by this

And as the message came full circle today, it basically was implying that these are the aspects of our lives that are 'shaping' us.
It really spoke volumes. It took me back to where I was in this thoughtlife (just 2 short years ago) and the most significant part about 'my' circumstance was that I simply hated what I had become.
Nor did I have the 'energy' it took to even try to turn my way of thinking around.
I did not care anymore.
I was 'done'.
Fed Up.
Tired.

I had to 'Re-negotiate' my way back
I needed to get on higher ground
I needed to be able to get past this way of thinking
I needed to be able to 'like myself' again

I still had great ambitions and desires in life
but i was simply tired of the fight......

"STICK WITH IT"
......You can be taken farther than you can even imagine -
Open yourself up to this.....and once you get on that higher ground, you can (and will) be used as a wonderful example and testimony to others.....

That was the message.

I stuffed all these words in my 'left pocket' and came running home like the kid who won the 'golden ticket' in 'Charlie and the Chocolate Factory'.....

In my heart and thru my eyes, I see 'YOU' as that Golden Ticket, Tom.

Later, my friend -
Rae