Awww Meg

I have no wise words except to say that I too am grateful that Brian was available when you so badly needed some-one.

Please don't feel embarrassed that you told a stanger how you felt. I do believe that you can sometimes say it like it is to a stranger, where some-one closer is not distanced enough for you to open up. The councellors at the other end of the phone don't know you, so they're unlikely to pass judgement.... there's no reprisal for you with a stranger, and you can always put the phone down if you feel threatened. I'm glad you didn't though..........

And don't forget that telephone councellors have training that you and I don't have, and I wouldn't hesitate to use the service again if I felt the need.