Hey Coffeegirl. You might need to just say (bleep) it, this is how it is and worrying isn't going to help my MS. Actually might make it worse! This is what your delt so how about giving Ampyra a try for strength? On the cheap you can take testosterone (I do) and that'll surely get your mind, memory, muscles, personal things ect going again. Get your level checked. While you're at it, get estrogens & progesterone checked. Hope that helps.