Originally Posted by Sarah Mae

Yes, Rae! It is a huge blessing from God!

As soon as my mom and I were done talking to the lady who called us, I thanked Him over and over and over again... He always provides and I know it was His doing... to connect us with this lady--otherwise I would have been denied because that doctor had already written a report and was going to deny me.. and because she got a second opinion, I don't have to worry about going through an appeal and getting a lawyer (which I don't have the money for anyway!).

And all in THREE months.. even that felt like forever, since I'm living on NO income.. but I know it can take much, much longer.. so I am grateful.

And today in the mail I got my records from my pain management doctor--the last two visits.

I think I know why the guy yesterday focused so much on this anxiety thing--my pain management doctor had it in my notes that I struggle with anxiety!!!!

I have no idea what gave him that impression (unless it was just the shots--because I did tell him about that, too).

Overall, that is NOT the case. I have one fear about this whole process.. and that does not equate having anxiety issues, in my opinion.

So when I see him on October 6th, I'm going to ask him (nicely) what led him to that conclusion and try to straighten it out and see if it can be removed from my file (if it isn't just about the shots)...

I struggled a lot with depression and anxiety in high school, but half of it was circumstantial and the other half is things that God has healed me of and I no longer struggle... so I know what anxiety is like and I do not have it right now.

And it's not at all that I'm afraid of someone thinking I struggle with it... I don't care (too much) what most people think of me. I care what those who matter to me think... but mostly I care what God thinks and what I think... BUT.. I don't want that in my permanent record if he can't give me a good reason for writing it, just because it can affect the way other doctors see me and what treatments I can get. And that, is not cool--if it's not the truth. SO I will talk to him and see why he says that and work that out with him.

But I am still on cloud 9 from that phone call--this is such wonderful news.

I was JUST trying to decide what to do with my cell phone. I have to pay my bill within a week, and that's the end of my money in savings and my checking account... so I was thinking I'd have to get rid of my phone... which would be fine except the fee to terminate a contract is a couple hundred dollars, which I don't have... so I was really struggling with how to handle this... and boom! Here comes God, providing in the way I certainly wasn't expecting!