Thanks for the response.

Lisa, I wonder why some Psychologist don't want to tackle that issue also. I have 2 nieces that deal with major depression due to illnessess. Kristie calls me sometimes 11 or 12 at night to talk to me until she gets to sleep. She says that she can't talk to her Psychologist about her suicidal thoughts and he's been her Psychologist for a few years. I don't understand that. I think that they feel they might have to deal with it in a different way then they deal with other issues. Back in 98, I went to one that wanted to do ECT on me. I didn't know anything about it and my PCP made the decision not to have it done. He said that I was dealing with depression due to illnesses and that I wasn't mentally ill. He might have changed his mind by now though. LOL

My other niece does talk to her Psychologist about her suicidal thoughts and he's been helping her for years so it's just the difference in them. I would try and find another one or maybe just come right out and tell him it's something you deal with.

I have dealt with suicidal tendencies all of my life and have came a long way but boy when my RSD really acts up, I go back to them. When I first got RSD I was so bad that my PCP put his whole office on call for me and if I wanted to walk in I could. I still call him if I am having a bad day and see him regularly.

I was just thinking of this yesterday due to having such a bad day and my thoughts are the same the whole time I am dealing with the pain, a gun. I don't have any in the house. My Dr. had Bill to let Travis keep them all 10 years ago when I was so bad. As far as my meds, he kept a close eye on me with them while I was so bad off.

I would think if that Psycholgist isn't going to let you talk about this subject, you might need to find another one. Find one that will let you say anything you want to say to him.

Jenna, As Loretta said, PM anyone if you want to talk. I will be glad to listen and talk to you. I'm very open about where I am in my life and where I was.

Ada