Thanks Sandy. I guess the reason I'm afraid of Ketamine is my somewhat lack of knowledge of the drug. I don't like the fact that it is abused as a street drug called, "Special K." I realize that I shouldn't feeel that way, as all of the perscription drugs I am currently taking are indeed, "abused on the street."
I am also afraid of potential hallucinations and other adverse reactions to the drug. You have to remember that I wouldn't take anything for pain for 15 months after I developed RSD. I think that confirms my reluctance to even accept the diagnosis and the changes and losses it has forced upon the lives of me and my family. Nurses sure are bad patients!
I am also concerned about the financial aspect of seeing these Drs.. I am hearing that insurance won't pay for Ketamine infusions. I know I shouldn't worry about these things before I know for sure what will be covered and what won't. I have not worked since my surgery in January of 2009 and feel tremendous guilt about that. I honestly have not even attempted to return to work, as trying to take care of myself and family is impossible many days. I have been a nurse for 28 years and have never been let go of a job. I loved my career and loved my job. Nursing is a big part of me and it is who I am! I know that I am not reliable, as doing anything for more than 2-2 1/2 hours sets me into a pain flare. I also wouldn't want a nurse on narcotics caring for me. I seem to have more bad days then good. Trust me, I live my life and don't stay holed up unless I absolutely have too, but I am feeling so discouraged with this monster of a condition. I hate the emotional rollercoaster it plays. For instance, I may have a few good days and think to myself, "Wow, this may be going away"
and then BAM! It's back and full blown!
So sorry to rant and I'm sure most RSD sufferers can relate to what I'm saying, but I am just reluctant to trust anyone new with my care. I have seen so many Dr's that just care about lining their pockets and I feel very comfortable with my present Dr's. I'm just anxious about the whole thing!
