Another person heard from -- I want my old life back!!! I've turned into someone I don't like -- my ears are "shocked" by the language sometimes. Like B2U said, "I'm not suicidal", but it's so darn frustrating trying to do anything. Stiff, spasms, pain, fatigue.....it's getting more difficult keeping up appearances and just want to lie down and let somebody else take care of me. The thought of living this way, or worse, for the rest of my life, is sooo depressing. Lately, in this beautiful fall season, all I'd really like to do is take a WALK down a dirt road here in the mountains.....so many memories.....too many times crying/screaming. The enjoyment of life is gone which is really sad.

Sorry to be so depressing, but that's the way it is after all these years.