Hi Horizontal One,
I'm so sorry to hear about your news. I hope that you didn't think that anybody was telling you off before! I know I wasn't and don't think anybody else would do that to you either! We're just trying to give you encouragement and as much support as we can. It's understandable that you would feel some depression about this and you don't don't need to apologize to anybody here. You've always been a ray of sunshine here!