Oh dear girl...I really believe that you have a handle on it. That doesn't mean that you have to do it alone, always be the strong one...yada, yada...I remember so well that 15 yr. old girl that was you...trying to hang on in spite of everything you had on your plate. I remember Pter having a fit in an email to me about a 15 yr old "child", hanging out in a suicide chat room!! LOL..we really did take our "roles" seriously...he fathered everyone back then, and I tried to mother you all.

I'm sorry you are sick...it's ok to be like a turtle on its' back. I think you are teriffic!