Hi, I am sorry you are in pain as so many are. I have been on Kadian, and ms contin for 6 years, The doctors never thought I would be able to get off this medication. I looked at it as a quality of life issue. There was no quality with the amount of pain I was in. Now after a successful fussion C3-7, I will be going down on my medication, as low as I can go. I am terrified as I already have met up with the other side of this addiction. I still would have done it just to be out of pain. I see my dr. the 18th to drop down. I wish for you the best. If your pain is terrible, for anyone, I don't think taking these meds is bad at all. Even with the flip side of it, it does give some life back. Ginnie