Oh Idealist, my dear friend, , what can I say that will clarify how so many of us feel.
And for starters, I have no interest about the # of posts..I never considered it of importance...

We all hurt...we all need something or we wouldn't be reading/posting here.
I wish you would "wonder" more often so I'd have a better idea of your needs..Mine are almost always the same...I'm depressed, or ****** off, or guilty about old or recent errors in judgement...

We have such a good friend in Curious...she is selfless...but you know that.