I thought I'd start a new thread because I'm not quitting smoking now.

I went on a little day trip with my sister, aunt, cousin, nephew, and my sister's MIL to observe my deceased mother's birthday.

Not 10 minutes down the road, my cousin started a bunch of drama. I had an anxiety attack. I popped a xanax which helped. However, the best relief was my 3 yo. nephew. I got to sit next to him. I focused all my attention on him and everything else faded into the background.

I crashed when I got home.

I'm still having s/s thoughts, but I'm mainly flat with periods of high anxiety.
I thought I'd be in the psych ward by now, so I guess things are going better than expected.

-Kay