Well, I saw him (my NS) today, and he doesn't seem to think that it will be all that easy to move my lead, and begrudgingly agreed to do it, but he said that it will take a special tool made to do it, and, well if that doesn't work, then he'll just have to pull it and that is major and blah blah blah, and it just reduced me to tears. You guys, I've just been losing my 'brave' lately - you haven't known me for the last few years during all the other surgeries - I've had my chin up. And I just don't know now - it's getting harder and harder. I felt like he would rather have hurt my feelings than to swallow his neurosurgeon pride. So Once the floodgates opened I just couldn't stop and cried all the way home. So now my face is just screaming with pain. Ughhhh. And Dear sweet Tina, before you get on the phone to call and help me feel better, it will just make me cry more and then the pain will be even worse, so if you wouldn't mind, please give me a day to just distract myself and eat some ice cream and watch movies so that I get my mind off of this until I am in a better space. I love you honey, but I know that I can't afford to cry any more today.
I know that things will be better tomorrow, they always are after a day as crappy as today!
Love to all,
Lily