It's good to have you
I'm sorry to hear of this difficult time you are facing....
Alot of what you are describing sounds like the way things were going for me right about the time I turned 40 No fun whatsoever....
The 'feeling alone' and not getting answers was the hardest part.

You've found a wonderful forum full of caring folks.
There are so many areas of support and people here really understand

Thank you for introducing yourself
I hope answers begin to unfold for you soon.

Just know that you are not alone

Truly Caring
Rae