Good grief Fiona. I too am speechless it just puts everything into prospective. You know people often say to me how unlucky I've been over the years with my back problem and it's debilitation and managing my daughter with Special Needs on top of all that. I say ah you know it's all relative. But it could be a lot worse etc. Mine isn't terminal. I can get about. I've a good sense of humour etc. But Fiona after reading your amazing post I'm dumbfounded. You have soooo much going on in your life and yet you come across so strong and positive I do sympathise also with you losing your mum and sister. Thats very hard. I lost my mum some years back and boy is that hard. I hope you aren't too uncomfortable with all you have going on and you make damn sure those scs's stay put. Ya hear