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Originally Posted by Dr. Smith
I wonder.... 
Hi smae,
Rhetorical question: Why is it so much easier to forgive others than to forgive ourselves? Charity begins at home.
Guilt is common with chronic illness, but not therapeutic. Forgiving ourselves is a part of coping/healing. A search of "chronic pain guilt" (without quotes) may help. |
I have no idea. And it doesn't even make sense. It's not like I did something to cause this... not directly.. it was the result of a surgery I had, but I had no idea this could have happened or I would have never had the surgery--but I had no control over what my body did after surgery and how the PN formed. Every doctor has said it's not anything I could have stopped.. so I should just accept that.. but on some level, it feels like I could have prevented it. I do know, though, that if I hadn't of had the surgery, I could very well be dead. Dead, or have severe polyneuropathy? Don't really like either outcome.
Anyway.. wasn't asking for a pity party or a place to vent my whole story.. just wanted to share that sometimes, the very thing you are asking for (finding the cause) is what ends up hurting you the most. It's not always the best and it sure didn't change any treatment for me. I would much prefer to not know.
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My name is Sarah and I am 25 years old. I have a lot of chronic health problems. Peripheral neuropathy and POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) keep me bedridden the majority of the time. I also struggle with degenerative disc disease, disc desiccation, spondylolisthesis, arthritis, polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) with insulin resistance, allergies, sound sensitivities, and other health problems.