Wow! Tyson, I'm impressed. Seriously. The hardest thing is to admit so-called "defeat" and to come up with a new game plan. After that, planning for a different life is fun.

You rest up, take some time to yourself and try to enjoy this silly ride. I'm really sorry there isn't someone - yet - who you can fully confide in. The thing is that they are out there. So many people are willing to help, you just have to ask.

Whatever you decide, taking care of yourself is the most important thing. Everything else will fall into place after that.

I think you are doing damn well for an 18 year old.