Tyson, no way is this your fault, although I do understand where you are comming from.

Yep having someone to confide in is a great thing. I have a sister who I talk to regularly and this helps.
I'm pretty sure I'm still in denial after nearly 8 years......just not as bad.

I'm glad you are looking at life in a different way, you are doing well and will continute to do so, no matter what decisions you make!!!! Sometimes we just have to take a different road in life, not the one we started out on maybe, but maybe just maybe we will find something esle on that road(I'm saying this to myself, as I still find it hard to comprehend:-) )
You take care, and continue to come here and vent, I've learnt alot from you Tyson, and its good to have you around
Kate