Thank you Bizi, Mari, and Bobby. All good advice!

I can't get in for the colposcopy until November 19th- they may do a biopsy then, but won't do anything else until they know what's going on.

A nurse did call me back with more info on my pap results. The abnormal cells were "lower-grade" and in the inter-epithelial region (LGSIL). The recent HPV results aren't back yet, but it seems like all such cases are accompanied by positive HPV results.
Thank you for letting me know about your experience Bizi- it helped.

I feel a little better with more info, but I was pretty off the wall last night.
I had several beers and an extra xanax before I calmed down.

Maybe I've had HPV all along, but it was never caught. And maybe it's only an issue now because I'm taking tysabri for my MS- it's an immunosupressant.

I may SOUND pretty together, but I can edit all this before I post. I'm up and down, and usually only post when I'm calmer, can focus, and have enough motivation.
I rely heavily on logic and analysis to cope with things so that I feel like I have some level of control. It works to some degree.

I have an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow at 2, and see my pdoc Wednesday. I'm hoping the therapy will help me think and talk through all this. Also hoping that doesn't trigger something.

Damn I wish I had gotten another "all's clear" card in the mail! I'm trying to "oh well" it for now.

Thanks again,
Kay