I have chronic pain and feel I have lost myself, become emotionally numb trying to bear it day after day ( that and the breathing difficulty). But your story was harder than mine as I saw your details. I wanted to think of a way to help.

It feels small but all I can do is say I am so glad you came here. Share everything and anything. I keep a journal and if I didnt have that to dump so many things in every day I know it would be worse. There is a change that happens when a person can get things out of their head and out into the world in some way.

I am sending you gentle thoughts and hope for a kind and good medical person to find better answers for you.

Annie59