well the past couple of days have turned out ok - better than hoped...
we had a long weekend (monday holiday) - i got kinda grumpy and felt suffocated today but not excessively, considering both parents home and in living room and watching tv talking etc.... and then later mom started going on in alarmist fashion about various things (that wears me thin, very quickly).

the thing is though, despite all this, i even got a little productive between sitting around.... fiddled with - troubleshot - tried to fix - uninstalled - downloaded - reinstalled - verified functionality - of some software i need to do the extra assignments from the class. this is a relief because when i found the software didn't work it was like, GROAN... i HATE dealing with installation fiddlygoop. well it's done.

the plan was to try get back with the program, or at least, some program, this week.

so the plan for this 4-day week is
- try and get used to getting up before 10-11 am again, sigh!
- work on assignments
- touch base with epilepsy center about doing some office work
- touch base with consultant i put on "hold" and see if he has written me off or what.
- send updated resume if he hasn't
- call school to advise teaching availability (maybe...i have some concerns to work out first)

my emm, "demons" have been somewhat tamer. tomorrow when i get out and about (pdoc appt) will be a major test to see to how much trouble they are going to make.

overall mood is better. feeling very insecure about work things... probably normal.

~ waves ~