well, i set the alarm for 10.30 (it was 10 when i posted)... hit snooze once, then turned it off and slept till about 11.30. then i felt better. i think i needed it. i think the increased need for sleep is probably stress recovery.

i had decreased my benzo about 4 nights ago, because i suspected excessive sedation. is long acting... it takes that long to notice a decrease. yesterday and today i noticed anxiety. i guess i better increase it again.

at least i did get up at 9, make coffee, took my zoloft then... that might help to make me tired earlier in the evening. one can hope. i set up a pre-program on the heat so that we can have it turn itself up automatically after 6 hours (getting up easier when freezing butt off not involved)

i missed my pdoc appointment. it was at earlier time than usual and i forgot that. he called when i was getting ready to take the bus ... 45 mins into my scheduled appointment! he has a convention next week and won't be able to see me till 2 weeks away. i declined his offer to try to rearrange his schedule to fit me in tomorrow. i thanked him and said if i were ill i'd accept, but i am ok enough that i don't want him to add that inconvenience to my screwup.

i called the epilepsy center - talked to the volunteer coordinator. i proposed 2 half days, and am waiting for the office manager to call me back to confirm. if it works for her i will be going there tuesdays and thursdays 10am to 2pm.

i called the software consultant i'd put "on hold" regarding my job search. no answer - he might be away this week, since there was a long weekend. he may call back or i will.

now i will look for something else to do. i should "crack" my homework, but i am feeling resistant towards it. there are a couple of other things i want to do. maybe i can do a bit and a bit. i am bad at handling situations like this... i get very all or nothing. i need to improve my time/task management.

~ waves ~ nervous... i hate expecting callbacks.