thanks Donna and Bizi.

just waiting for the E center to call now...

the consultant called back early yesterday evening. it's cool he didn't decide to liquidate me or anything. this morning i sent him my updated resume. one down.

i had bad anxiety last night. took 2.5mg lorazepam. it mostly helped. it will take a while for the regular benzo to build up again.

today i have to
- call in and pick up a script from my GP
- call the school and tell them i'm available for teaching

yesterday i ended up taking out all the recycling/trash from the long weekend but didn't do any homework. i can't seem to get with the homework, so i am trying to break down the task a whole bunch here. so maybe today i can:
- open my homework assignments
- find and read the description of one i'm supposed to do next

i woke up at 8 spontaneously and took my coffee. this time i made the bed right away. at worst i can crash on the couch which is uncomfortable (but if i'm that tired i won't care.) but next thing is i am going to get dressed and make like i'm a regular human being or something.

~ waves ~